Love is a Complicated Word

Love is a complicated word,
It can't be described by other words,
But it is tangible and powerful,
It is gentle and sweet.
Love is the feeling of coming home
After a long, long time away,
Love is the warm feeling
of a friend's embrace,
Love is a father's shoulder
That you can always cry on,
Love is the song sung
By many voices all as one,
Love is the crippled baby
Sleeping softly in my arms,
Love is the tear fallen
For the lost, hurt, and broken
Love is the loud laughter among
The very best of friends,
Love is the smile
on my brother's face.
Love is a baby boy,
Laying in a manger,
Love is the great joy
When He became our Savior,
Love is the blood
He poured out to save our souls,
Love is the dark emptiness
Of his tomb.
Love is a complicated word,
But the message it carries
Shakes us to our knees.

Trust

You can't earn back trust, you say?
I certainly beg to differ,
It is a part of being human.
We fall and make mistakes,
We hurt other people,
People we care deeply about.
It's hard to let them back in,
But we get up and try again
Because our goal as a race
Is to constantly better ourselves.
People who don't learn to trust
Don't learn how to live,
Live beyond survival.
To truly live is to love,
And to truly love is forgive,
Everybody deserves a second chance.

My Desperate Plea

Wake up, O my heart!
You have been asleep for too long!
When did you stop feeling the Almighty God
Shaking you awake?

Listen, O my heart!
You have been deaf for too long!
When did you stop listening to the Almighty God
Calling out your name?

Look up, O my heart!
You have been blind for too long!
When did your awe of the Almighty God
turn into something ordinary?

Fire up, O my heart!
You have been cold for too long!
When did your passion for the Almighty God
freeze within your veins?

Beat, Beat, O my heart!
you have been still for too long!
When did the love of the Almighty God
stop making you fall to your knees?

I Will

I have made some mistakes
And I have some regrets
But I will learn.

My heart has been broken
And my soul pierced straight though
But I will heal.

I have cried tears of pain
And I have screamed screams of anger
But I will laugh.

I have made enemies
And I have lost dear friends
But I will love.

I have failed
And I have screwed up
But I will succeed.

People tell me I will fall
And they tell me that I cannot
But I will.

Knowing

All my life I’ve known,
Known that I was worthless,
Known that life was meaningless,
Known that nobody cared.
I walked with my head down
Trying to hide the fear within,
And the pain written on my face.
I’m scarred deep in my soul
And some open wounds fester,
It’s ugly in the depths of my being,
A place not many have seen.
I didn’t know where to turn
I felt lost and all alone,
And then I saw the light.
I truly met the one
That can fix the hurt inside,
Now I walk with my head held high,
I know I’ve got a plan,
I know somebody loves me,
And I know that I have worth.

Beginning Anew

Walking through a crowd,
A crowd of new faces,
Some are quiet and some loud,
They’re all from different places

Smiles rain down as I pass them by
Wandering in a new direction
I look all around and sigh a big sigh
Because this happiness spreads like an infection

Here is where the past doesn’t matter
It is here I begin a new life
So I join in with all the laughter
Because I’ve forgotten about all the strife

So I lift my arms and dance
Because no one knows me
And they can see in a glance
That I’m all I can be.

Sky Dancing

I’m flying through the sky
At a 100 miles an hour
But I wish that I could fly
Under my own power

I wanna dance with a cloud
And the birds of the air
I wanna sing out loud
And let down my hair

You’ll be on the ground
While I’m dancing in the air
You’ll be safe and sound
When I’m flying up there

You’ll never feel any pain
But I’ll be truly living
Flying in the fast lane
While at home you’re sitting


Because I live every day
Like it was my last
So I laugh and I play
And I don’t regret the past

I don’t know how to fly
Under my own power
But I know I’m gonna try
And become a sky diver

What If...

Do you ever wonder "what if?"
What if we'd given that spark a chance?
What if we could have found romance?
But now all that's left is "what if?"

What if I'd tried harder?
Tried to get past the distance
Instead of putting up all that resistance?
But all I did was act the martyr.

What if you'd tried to hold on?
Fight for my deep affection,
But you ran in the other direction,
Til your heart was long gone.

What if we'd opened up again?
Laid bare out hearts once more?
Really looked deep into the core?
But... what if it was all in vain?

Betrayal

Betrayal leaves a bitter taste behind
And a hollow pit in your stomach,
My eyes are full of unshed tears,
And in my back there’s a knife.

Our friendship was on a firm foundation,
Our trust was a rope of steel,
But today that friendship crumbled,
And that rope was cut in twain.

So where do we go from here?
How long will this take to heal?
I feel our lives diverging
And your hand slipping slowly away.

To My Dearest Friend

I think that it's time to say goodbye,
Yes, you've been with me for years now
But I think that I need to be strong and let go,
Though it'll be hard-going without you.

You've always been there for me,
You caught my broken-hearted tears
And comforted me when I was down,
You never cared that I hugged you too tight.

Only you understand my fear of the night,
You've heard me whimper when I held you close,
Like a night guard you've protected me,
I fear no goblins or monsters when you're around.

But I'm getting older now,
I'm moving out into the great wide world,
I'll miss you more than I can say,
But I have to fight my own battles now.

Farewell, Teddy Bear.

Ode to my Air Conditioner

In tropical climates air conditioners are a must have :D

The sweat drips down my sad face,
The day is hot and sticky,
My feet drag at a slow pace,
I’m so tired and icky!

I stumble into my room,
Feeling like roasted mutton,
The heat is oppressive doom,
I press that magic button.

Oh, Air Con! I feel that breeze!
Your cool air lifts my spirit,
You put me at instant ease,
The heat, you do not fear it.

When humidity rises
And the sun scorches the ground,
Whatever the degree is
You will always be around.

Sometimes I doubt your power,
Sometimes coolness goes unfelt,
But faithful to the hour,
You will never let me melt!

Oh, Air Con! I need you please!
Your powers I’ll never doubt!
For it’s me the heat will seize
Unless you wrestle it out.

Oh, Air Con! You are supreme!
You’re much better than the fan,
To say “not” would be blaspheme!
You’re better than any man.

My Name Was Written in the Sand

My name was written in the sand,
I put it there with my big toe,
And then I stood upon the land,
And watched the white waves grow.

I stood there and I watched the tide
As it crept silent up the beach,
And no one heard me as I cried
For I was out of reach.

I looked upon my fading name
As it was eaten by the sea,
I smiled as I soon became
Someone other than me.

I waved goodbye to other self,
Cuz to my heart I must be true,
I put my old life on the shelf
As I began anew.

My name was written in the sand,
But permanence is an old lie,
Earth moves around me as I stand,
And time passes me by.

Just Because I'm Young Doesn't mean I'm Ignorant

Another poem for poetry class. My "voice of protest."

Don’t look at me like I don’t understand,
I have been where you can’t even imagine,
I have travelled the world and seen life,
Where have you been?

Don’t look at me like I can’t comprehend,
I have seen what you can’t fathom,
I have seen poverty, disease, and brokenness,
What have you seen?

Don’t you even try to patronize me,
I have felt more than you ever will,
I have experienced pain and heartache,
What have you felt?

Don’t look at me with mocking eyes,
I have done what you never could,
I have looked into the heinous face of Fear,
What have you done?

Fear

O King of the Darkness,
O Wretched Stalker of Dreams,
How long have you held me captive?
When you stole my childhood innocence
I was forever a slave to your ways,
You beat me to broken submission.

You, Foul Tyrant of the Night,
You Rapist of Children's Hope,
How long have I bent to your will?
Since you taught me I was worthless
I have been the perfect servant,
Never chafing against my bonds.

Scorner of Dignity,
Mocker of Righteousness,
How long have you held me to your breast?
Since you clawed my heart wide open
And brutally forced your way in,
You drink in the screams of my soul.

O Demon of Horrors,
O Feaster of Gibbering Souls,
How long will you keep me?
Since I long to be free of you
Though you have been my constant companion,
I fear your presence will destroy me.

Haunted

The darknesss covers all,
No hope shines through,
Fear shakes my very being,
Remembering the pain,
The countless hands
That took away innocence,
And ripped confidence to shreds.

Now Darkness knows,
He knows my secrets,
He knows my shame,
He sends monsters in the night,
And sends Fear to share my bed,
To whisper poison in my ear,
And take advantage of me.

Oh, will I never be free?
Free of trembling in the night,
Free of the pain that lives in me,
Memories haunt my dreams,
And trap me in doubt,
I wish I could run away,
But I am glued to the floor.

Jesus, why can't I hear you?
You feel so far away,
I want to give it all you to,
But it's locked inside my heart
and Fear holds the key,
I need you to break the door,
I can't open it on my own.

She Dances

This poem is dedicated to my sister.

Another hard day and she comes home crying again,
She thought today would be different,
Maybe today they would accept her,
But she found nothing but name calling and jeers,
The pain is bad but nobody understands,
So she locks herself in her room
And she dances.

Another hard day in a strange, exciting new world,
She thought this time it would be different,
Maybe today they would talk to her,
But she found herself spending the weekend alone,
She cries and wishes someone would hear her,
But she locks herself in her room
And she dances.

A good day today, she found where she belongs,
She knew this time it would be different,
God wrapped her in his love today,
And she found someone to spend forever with her,
She smiles and wants the world to know,
So she leaves the door wide open
And she dances.

This Stage

For class I had to write a poem about a special place.

The smell of hairspray and make up fills my nose,
The crowd is hushed in anticipation,
I breathe in deeply and take center stage
And shift into someone other than myself.
This stage has seen the many people that I have become:
A palace guard with a little voice,
A student in heavy winter boots,
A dancer with an undying smile,
And a reporter with a secret plan.
And this stage has borne the likes of
A business woman with promotion in mind,
A poor widow easily beguiled,
A flirt with a diabolical scheme,
And a runaway bride to scared to own up to love.
This stage has beheld my laughter and tears,
My successes and my failures,
This stage has heard me scream and rage,
This stage has heard me beg and plead.
But when the curtain falls
And the lights go down,
This stage no longer sees a character in a play
This stage looks through all the masks
Into the very core of me.

Rhyme

Oh, I would have so much time
If I didn't take the time to rhyme,
I could do that homework I had to do
Like read those AP books that make me blue,
I could sit and learn those drama lines
Or go and pay those library fines,
But instead I'm stuck here on this blog
Trying to rhyme with words like... smog?

Oh I would have so much time
If I didn't take the time to rhyme,
I could do that college application
Which I look at with much trepidation,
Or I could go and commicate with a friend
But I fear I would come back here in the end,
Could someone please help me with this addiction?
Before I completely destroy my diction?

The Race

This poem symbolizes the end of high school years :)

Feet dragging
Chains chafing
Muscles straining
Heart pounding
Lungs burning
Hurdles looming
Chains breaking
Stomach fluttering
Arms flailing
Falling.


Stand up
Chains gone
Feet moving
Heart racing
Chest heaving
Arms pumping
Hurdles bigger
Strength failing
Tears flowing
Falling.



Get up
Eyes flashing
Hope rising
Strength flooding
Body moving
Almost there
End nearer
End nearer
End nearer
Free.

Noise

I toss and turn in bed
so many thoughts running through my head
I just want to fall into a dreamless sleep
But my mind won't quiet down
All these worries plague my sleep
And I find myself in tears again

I just want to listen to silence
The World has gotten too loud
I just want to deal with today
Tomorrow is too far away

I listen to the city
To the sirens blaring through the sorrow of the night
Where are the gleaming stars tonight?
The World has run them off
I wish that I could hide with them
And maybe get some sleep tonight

I just want to listen to silence
The World has gotten too loud
I just want to deal with today
Tomorrow is too far away

My head hurts
My heart aches
My soul longs for a change
So save me
I'm waiting
For the World to leave me alone

So turn down the music
And try to find that still small voice within you
Leave the craziness of life behind you
And breathe for awhile
Just ignore the world for a time
and listen to the quiet

I just want to listen to silence
The World has gotten too loud
I just want to deal with today
Tomorrow is too far away...

Unsightly

This poem is dedicated for the people who lose their appetites when they see nasty people on the beach...

I look out at the sea
It's gorgeous, so blue...
But wait! where'd it go!?
There's something hideous
Obscuring my vision
I find it quite hard to keep my food down
It's fat and it's white
oh, what a dreadful sight!
His tiny black speedos are such a nasty fright!
Covering my eyes, I run far away
This fat ugly man has just ruined my day

To The Nameless Who Caused Unseen Wounds

Do you remember me?
I doubt you do,
I'm that scared little white girl
Walking innocently along,
We'd never met before,
But I took your fancy,
I was an easy prey for your sick perversions.
It never crossed your mind
That your touch would haunt my dreams,
It probably never dawned on you
That you caused wounds that remain unseen.
I see you every day, you know,
You're in the shadows and under the bed,
You're in the face of every man I see,
You may have forgotten me
But I will never forget you.
These wounds run deep,
They ache and cry to be healed,
And I don't have the strength
To knock down the walls that surround my heart,
And to let merciful healing in.
But I hope one day you will tear down your walls,
I hope you can feel the sweet forgiveness,
I hope one day you remember me.

No Where and Everywhere

I am from no where,
A rootless tree or a wisp of wind,
I am neither from here nor there,
A wandering soul or a homeless vagabond.

And I from everywhere,
The rolling golden hills of West Virginia,
The cold rainy highlands of Scotland,
And even the hot dry dust of Texas,
And I am from the soaring snowy peaks of Tajikistan,
And the humid sandy beaches of Malaysia,

And I am from a thousand voices,
From "hey y'all" to "do you ken?"
And from "salaam alyakum" to "ruski ni panimayu?"
And "Salamat pagi" to "chi gap ai?"

I am from a family,
A family like no other,
Too many grandparents from too many places,
And crazy parents in the middle of no where,
but they are more permanent than a house of brick,
They are where I'm from.